This is the second part of my poem" Knowing I cant have you is what pain me most"

Knowing you, loving you and care about you

Is what deepen my love for you, but

Not all my though is about you.

I feel as if, I'm thinking but

it's getting no where.

I feel as if, I know the answer but

it's not the rite one.

You say I'm worthless

I don't know if that really true

I know I had this feeling but

it's so unrealistic.

I lost in my own though 

because of you

Knowing you, loving you and care about you

is what causing me this problem but

what do you know when 

you called me worthless

than a piece of homework.

What was that you say, 

because I'm worthless

It heartbroken to know

to live with the true

that I weight nothing in your heart but

I don't know why my heart

still yearning for you

and only you.

Is this what people call love

why it so painful but

still so kind.

What kind of fire

that light the theme of my heart

that keep yearning for you.

What kind of feeling

that make my heart trembling

just by the sound of your name.

Your word is like a sharp knife that pierced

my heart.

Blood start to drip like rain and then

quickly pour out like a waterfall.

As each drop of blood fell

my heart start to throb and I fall unconscious.

I wish you could see

the pain that you caused to me.

How could you live with yourself

when I gave you my heart but

in return rejection is what I got.

I want to curses you for what you done but

my mouth won't utter no word.

My love bring pain but it strong

just like the love of motherhood.

How can I bring myself to love you

when my heart fill with sadness but

now my heart still yearning for you

and only you.

Mr.Thompson Homework

He's our brother, Ismene! Yours and mine! And if you won't help me then they won't be saying that it was I who has betrayed him!

I can't seem to find any word to fit this. Wait, only one sentence is that Antigone is really love her family, even if they fight each other. She like very strong will and that she will do anything to respect her family member.

Knowing I can't have you is what pain me most

I got bored so I wrote this poem. Most of it is kindna true on what happen around me. >.<

Knowing you, loving you and care about you

Is what deepen my love for you, but

Not all my thought is about you.

I feel as if, I'm thinking but

It's getting no where.

I feel as if, I'm known the answer but

It's not the right one.

You say I'm worthless 

I don't know if that really

true

I know I had this feeling

but it so unrealistic.

I lost in my own thought

because of you.

Knowing you, loving you and care about you

is what causing me this problem but

what do you know when

you call me worthless 

than a piece of homework.

What was that you say,

because I'm worthless.

It heartbroken to know

to live with the true 

that I weigh nothing in your heart but 

I don't know why my heart

is still yearning for you 

and only you.

 

Today, is a new wonderful day

Time is really slow for me right now. I wish time could speed up a little to the weekend. It not because I want to take a break but what is coming up. Time for me is so unrealistic right now. Sometime I stare at a blank wall and wait up, it 2 hour pass. My head hurt but I can't seem to do anything about it. Keep thinking and lost in my own mind. How creepy is that. I know what cause this but scare of telling it and expose what inside. It hunger for my attention but all I feel is pain. 

Love seem so painful but it's so wonderful

I saw one of my friend post and it said that"Betrayal can only happen if you in love". That is sure true because when you in love, there will be sadness and sweet feeling that come after. When you in love, you will know that your heart is reaching to the one you desire. Loving and liking is so MUCH different. Like someone doesn't hurt that much when rejection or betrayal came. Love will deepen over time and it can make a person go crazy. Most people don't understand why they in love or they don't even know their feeling because they confused by their over powered feeling that happen so fast. I fall in love once, and it was very painful. I alway thinking of that person whenever I'm awake or even sleep. My heart would beat fast whenever I'm thinking of that person. Love seem so difficult when you understand how it work. Now, I'm scare of being alone because I will think of that person when I'm alone. Now, my life is surrounding by people who starting to fall into the web of love.

I'm an awesome cook

Today, friday the 19th of september. A 6:30pm I chop up chicken and boiled it. Then while I boil the chicken I go into my house and cut up cabbage. Like long string and put it in a bowl(big bowl). Then after the chicken is boil then I take it out. Strip the meat in pieces and put it with the cabbage. Then I put rice into the water that boiled the chicken so I can make chicken poridge. I smash red pepper(the really spicy asian pepper one) and I put lemon, add sugar and then put in water mixed with fish sauce. I dump the whole thing into the cabbage and chicken meat. I just make a appetizer for tonight dinner. Then the rice in the water is fully opened. I add in some chicken bone marrow powder. Some more fish sauce and it taste so good. I call Han, Can, and Linh(they all graduated except Can) to my house and eat. I put some poridge and appertizer for my mom. They eat the whole think I cook and I cook a lot. It a farawell party for Linh and Han going to college. It was really good. I love to cook and very specialist in vietnamese food. 

Family pressure!

I think I'm gifted kid. To me everything is not a stress but a cruel thing. Don't get me wrong by what I say above, it just a head to get people to look at. So here the situation, most people that involve around me seem to get a lot stress these day. Ex. school, family, friends, and even themselve. People get stress so easily but I don't know why I take everything so easy. I feel as if they making something harder for them. If you know me, I alway do thing really quick. Also, I study with my memory which lot of students don't use. Most people that get stress in school is people that want to do everything perfect or having a situation which I called a pressure from something that is not related to school but it linger to the student mind and making them do think they don't mean to do. Like drop their grade, act bad, or even do drug. Families do play a very important role in students now a day. Parents is what kids look up to. Bad example mean the kid life is doom. You are what you choose to be, many students don't get this quote. They seem to not think what they doing. Until the very end and the stress began. You want to back out from something, friends giving u pressure. Don't ask me why I wrote this.

Do I seem old to anyone?

You know, sometime I feel as If I'm growing out of my teenager world. It not like Im growing up as outside but I have feeling that I cant explain. I know so much(not like knowledge) about feeling. It feel so easy for me to understand people. A lot of time people come to me when they sad, angry, heart broken, or even asking me if they should like someone. It seem as if I'm the guy with all the answer but for some weird reason all the things that I say to them help them a lot. Sometime people choose the wrong decide and it not my opinion that they choose it wrong but if anyone look through it, they would know. I would go on and tell them stuff that I never though I would say it. Not bad stuff but expostulate them from it, but they not mad at me a lot of the time they happy that I talk to them. Then one day something bad fall on me. I got this feeling that I can't seem to bear it. I feel so sad and stressed out but got no one to talk to. Like I talk to them, they just think I'm weird. I get this feeling as if they say go away, your problem is so complicated and don't get me involved. Luckily, I found my way out in the end but it still heartbroken to know the truth. I seem fine with it but somehow I try to forget it. Thing around me remind me of the pain. The feeling I get is so hard to bear during those time and it still do.

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Lalala! Omg! I finially know how to use a blog. Well let talk about what I do yesterday. Yesterday I help a Junior do his homework. I feel so smart but the Junior really close to me so I feel special that someone ask me stuff. Then I do my homework, take a shower, cook ramen and then sleep. All of that stuff take me to midnight.