A journey call life is to find those colors
A distinct line seperate each colors
Life then make up of many colors
Ok, I'm so bore right now that I'm about to go crazy. My life is so uproar right now that I want to close myself from the world. Sometime I wake up telling myself to close myself. No friends, no weird feeling for someone. I wanted to be like how I used to be when I was in middle school and elementary school. Quiet, timid, only to myself, don't smile, alone, and no friend. Now that I'm in high school. I got more friends and the heart and feeling I keep deep down inside, I have to open it up to accept other people friendly feeling. A closed heart that now open is like a newborn child that can be hurt easily. My heart is feeling like that right now. I don't want to feel what I'm feeling right now because I think I'm scare of it. I think I scare of this feeling more than I ever been afraid in my life. I once feel like this before and it was hurting me more than someone else. ^.^ Now thinking about it make me feel dumb but something starting to came back to me again. In my heart that I can't reject it. It came slowly like a stalker that stalk you but the person that stalking me right now is me. How irony is that? A feeling I don't want to have because I will do stupid things and when it all over, I will feel stupid and people will think I'm weird(it not like I care) but I scare that a scar will be left in my heart and I will close my feeling in an iron box. If you reading this blog, You probably guess what I'm feeling right now.
1 comment:
Awww, don't be so hard on yourself. Life is unfair; I agree but you shouldn't let it rule you for the rest of your life.
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